🌟Trigger Warning🌟
As it turned out, I was the last to know. He had received a letter earlier that week and had hidden it. I do understand why he would of done this, because rightly so it worried me. However in a relationship you have to be honest, there is no point keeping things from your other half because eventually it always comes out and that makes it worse.
I was so confused, I couldn’t understand why said person who Pete had had nothing to do with for over 2 years would do this now. I believed him when he said he hadnt done anything, I was with him all the time, more so now he wasn’t working. There was no way he even had the time to harras anyone.
Pete was allowed home the next day. However no crisis team this time, it wasn’t offered.
I felt pretty let down, I had phoned his CPN when all this happened and he was going to take Petes case back but it felt like we were going home alone, and I wasn’t sure I could cope with how it was making me feel. I needed to be so strong for Pete but who was being strong for me?
Pete was asked to go in for a voluntary interview with the police, but we had to wait 2 weeks for this. 2 weeks of worry.
It was a Friday when he did go in for it, he asked for the duty solicitor (he was advised by his CPN to have one) but he wasn’t there so they sent Pete home and said they would ring him with another date. More time to stew and worry.
We didn’t hear from them again for a month.
Between the initial interview and the wait for the proper one Pete went down hill even more. I mean I’m not surprised, it was a really horrible time. He had no energy, he wanted to sleep all day, he didn’t want to live his life.
It was a Friday and I was up early to go and meet some friends. I tried to wake Pete to say goodbye but something didn’t sit right. He was more with it but he wasn’t right. So I cancelled going out and woke his mum.
Pete wasn’t making much sense, this will sound awful but I wasn’t even shocked this time, it was almost like I was expecting it to happen.
We phoned a ambulance and they came immediately. They checked his vitals etc and his blood pressure was very low. This time he had taken the same medication as the last aswell as blood pressure lowering pills.
I think we managed to get him help just in time because he was confused and not quite with it but not unconscious like before. The paramedics I must say were excellent. There was 3 of them and they were all so lovely and kind, that does make a difference in this kind of situation.
In A&E they ran tests and found that this time Pete had caused himself acute kidney failure. Obviously this was a huge worry. I find hospitals hard work, people say things and use words that not everyone would understand, no one explains things that well.
He was hooked up to multiple bags of fluid to try and reverse the damage to his kidneys. And flush the medicine out of his system.
He was moved to the ward fairly soon after that and we got him some food before going home. He still wasn’t with it properly and he needed rest again.
Thankfully after being kept in a few days they managed to reverse the damage to his kidneys. He would have to have regular blood tests to make sure but it was good news.
He was allowed home again, with no crisis team and no extra help. The stress of this was so hard to deal with.
