🌟Trigger Warning🌟
The police got back in contact and Pete had to go in for the voluntary interview. I went with him but waited in the car. 2 hours later he came back.
The person accusing him of harrasment didn’t have a leg to stand on. The accusations were all very mundane, it was such a relief. The solicitor told Pete not to worry. They didn’t even have an evidence.
I’m not gonna write about what the accusations were or anything as I don’t want said person using it against me.
All that worry and panic for essentially nothing. It was so frustrating. We were both very angry.
This was around April. Nothing really happened over April or early May other than that. We went to see take that in London in my birthday in May, we had a good day despite missing our coach home, but that was just me and Pete. If something like that didn’t happen it wouldn’t of been us ha 🤦🏼‍♀️
The last few weeks of May, we made the decision to postpone the party element of our wedding. The stress of paying for it was to much. Pete wasn’t happy about this, he blamed himself, no matter what i told him he wouldn’t believe me.
The plan was changed so that our family’s would attend the actual ceremony and we would go for a meal afterwards. The party would be postponed until probably early next year.
It wasn’t ideal but its what was best and at the end of the day we would be married and that was the most important part of it ❤️
The last week of May and first week of June came, Pete wasn’t doing well. But he was doing better than previous times. He knew that his mental health was having an effect on mine and he was hating himself because of this.
These couple of weeks are both a bit blurry now but I know there 2 conversations that stand out. One was because we talked about how it was effecting me and he told me to leave him so I could focus on myself. I told him no. We were in this together, I loved him, he was my soulmate and I am not the person to walk away just because its tough.
The other conversation was more worrying. I was on his phone for some reason (we both used each others, there was complete trust with that so nothing to hide). I was on the Internet and it came up with his previous search, how to posion yourself with diazapam.
I immediately panicked and questioned him about this. He said he knew that I had some (I have been prescribed it in the past but I hate taking it and haven’t had any for over a year, so he was wrong) he said he was struggling to sleep again so was just looking up things relating to it to see it it would help.
I got upset, it’s so hard to stay strong sometimes.
I honestly can’t remember what happened after that, my next memories is of Friday 7th June. The day that changed my life forever.
