🌟Trigger Warning🌟 Since the funeral I feel like we have all been in some kinda of limbo world. Waiting for the post mortom results and news on the inquest. Inbetween this time petes parents have sold the house. I have to move within the next couple of weeks and as of now I’m not entirely …
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The funeral..
We planned the funeral. The days flew by before it. The day before i spent running around trying to find something to wear and make the photo board. My best friend was with me the whole day and I’m very lucky for that. If you knew Pete you will know he had a huge love …
Broken.
🌟Trigger Warning🌟 I wanted to write about how ive felt throughout our relationship and since Pete died. I knew going into the relationship Pete had his demons. That would never have stopped me or would stop me though. We all have demons. Obviously at first I didn’t know the extent of his difficulties. But they …
Chapel of rest..
🌟Trigger Warning🌟 The coronor kept Pete for over 2 weeks. They kept changing the date he would be released and so we were unable to organise the funeral for a while. They eventually released him on the 25th June. Since the day he died, everyone kept asking me if I wanted to go and visit …
Friday 7th June 2019
🌟Trigger Warning🌟 Friday 7th June 2019 This is the hardest post to write. The day before (Thursday) I had been with my mum and bestie to collect my wedding dress 💛 had spent the rest of the day with Pete doing average crap, food shopping, cooking, washing etc. We watched love Island (don’t judge) bitched …
Police and final weeks..
🌟Trigger Warning🌟 The police got back in contact and Pete had to go in for the voluntary interview. I went with him but waited in the car. 2 hours later he came back. The person accusing him of harrasment didn’t have a leg to stand on. The accusations were all very mundane, it was such …
Twice within a month..
🌟Trigger Warning🌟 As it turned out, I was the last to know. He had received a letter earlier that week and had hidden it. I do understand why he would of done this, because rightly so it worried me. However in a relationship you have to be honest, there is no point keeping things from …
That phone call..
🌟Trigger Warning🌟 We went home and after a couple of stressful hours rang the hospital for an update. They said they were going to move him to the ward now, which hopefully meant he was coming round a bit. We went straight back down to see him. When we arrived he had only just been …
My fault?!
🌟Trigger Warning🌟 It was the end of March. I’m forcing myself to remember this occasion so it may or may not make complete sense. I woke up one morning to Petes mum knocking the door asking if we wanted to go out for breakfast with them. I said I’d wake Pete and ask. We were …
2019..
New year came and went and suddenly it was 2019, the year we were getting married ♥️ Pete had decided he didn’t want to stay in his job anymore, he wasn’t progressing quick enough for his liking. We all tried to talk him out of it, he had only been back in work 9 months …
